hey...hm my eyes are kinda swollen today sob sob...haiz hm i woke up around 9 plus today yet i slept so late last nite like around 2am?! yup but i feel so refresh or should i say i cant sleep haha...hm seriously i am crazy, i woke up and quickly get changed and went out...but i didnt know where to go?! crazy right...hm so i juz asked Shaun to acompany me awhile lahz hm we went to harbourfront...sat down at a cafe and started to spent our time there...i duno what to do but juz lie there..thinking....actually i wanted to go tanning today but i lose interest in tat....ya i actually lose interest in tanning..am i in the right state of mind?! hm after that i decided to head home...i finally miss home....but but but when i came back, it irks me! haiz its sad that someone in the family does not like me...hm this person have been picking on me since well young and i know i cant communicate with this person yet sometimes i felt sorry for her, ya she is my grandma lahz..i duno but i simply cant stand her anymore.....i juz stood there and a drop of tears fell ya really one drop onli...i really wish i can leave home...wanna get into NS soon so tat i can leave my house but still i cant bear to leave my mother and my younger brother, we are so close...i duno who will take care of my mother when i am not around...ya i must admit she is strong and has endless energy but still she need someone to support her

haiz ok yup i decided..i had enough with this kind of life...it bothers me so i will quickly find a job soon by 2molo....hm work would make me forget my troubles.......in the past, studying really can help me alot! when i haf any problems in the past, i would then buried myself in the books but now haiz i really miss studying and those school days....ok ya so i will find a job by 2molo...actually i wanna work at mcdonalds haha ya you people must be thinking i am crazy but hey i really think i will enjoy the job ok....anyway i will search.....i dun wan to think anymore nor miss anymore ok yup good luck to me hehe and lastly i wanna thank Shaun for listening to me today..hm its really nice of you yup....lets go swimming one of these days! kk tats all yup tata