date: Thursday, February 28, 2008 @ 12:22 AM
My world has changed,
not a sound at all.
This moment,
I lose my balance.
Looking upon how you used to worry for me
and looking at how you leave me.
You wanted me to take care of myself.
The 'pain' suffocates me.
I tried every way to think of you
and to forget you.
I hate Fate's arrogant expression,
laughing at my inability to change things.
I cried, I thought, I loved,
to think of you.
I realise the 'cant be help'
only when I face up to it,
then I can let go.
date: @ 12:02 AM
So everything between us was just a lie,
what a fool i was.
You were the one person i trusted
but you cruelly destroyed that trust.
why?
The 2 of us could have been happy together.
I don't know what to believe anymore.
Why do people repay our sincerity by hurting us?
Why are people so horrible?
I very much want to hate but i fail to do it,
I have myself to blame that i have been hurt.
Am I very useless?
date: Saturday, February 23, 2008 @ 8:35 AM
hey.....hm today haf dragon boat training....as usual met up wif star......today not much people attend the training onli some newbies n those takin part in the cuming compeititon.....yeap hm today's training was the toughest so far....i really a bit cant take it...haiz perhaps i too long nv row le so abit rusty.....plus a few senior rowers also came to correct me....argh i feel so paisei....but they r encouragin la....hm give me some time n i will be improve.....yup as long as u give 100 percent of effort doin sth.....it will pay off......yup i admit i m not gd la but i m wiling to learn......so i m glad i receive those comments yup it helped me! ya i think i rub my kneel against the boat so sort of swollen n bruise......haiz hm told Jorden abt it on my way home....n he tot quite serious so he rush to my house n see me haha.....silly......he helped me massage my kneel area plus i was feelin quite depressed after today's session so he console me heee....then we went to haf dinner at Anchor point....its near my house n its veri new n modern leh....alot of things.....we came upon this mickey mouse restaurant n they will show disney movies.....nice rite haha Jorden was cravin for Ikea's chicken wings but sold out then we went anchor point food court to juz haf something light.....n his favourite bubble tea....yup he later send me home n then went to his pri sch gatherin.....hm while i was walkin home....my kneel cap hurts leh...haiz shit....yup tats abt it...tata
date: Friday, February 22, 2008 @ 9:16 AM
hey...hm today went for dinner wif Weijie, poohee n Jinhui.....we went to eat Mala spicy steamboat.......yup its been sometime since i had tat.....n its really yummy the moment i start eatin...it brings back tat old feeling.......yup but as usual the longer u eat, the more sick of it......yup so i didnt gorge myself but juz eat til i m full tats all.......yup after tat we went to bugis street shopping....haha cos me n weijie r gona catch a show later so we scare cold mah then we went to buy Cardigans....which is onli 15 bucks la....super cheap.....we each get one haha......then my 'feeling' came haha nid to shit! its always like tat after u eat steamboat.....n i shit twice la.....argh nth left le.......yup then we went to marina sq to watch 'Ah Long pte'......haha its really funny okie....thou critics may judge not so well of this film but i myself like it alot....story is nice....wif a little twist here n there....n u can really see tat Jack Neo is veri meticulous........yup some parts quite touchin too......but overall its really hilarous! haha yeap hm amazinly there is still bus for me la cos its past midnite le...haha yeah.....n one more thing tat is really funny....tats Weijie n his plastic bag! haha must show sam! yup the next film i wanna show is 'The Leap Years'.....oh my god....juz by looking at the trailer is super nice la.......yup muz catch tat! yup yup tats abt it.....goin back to my toliet bowl.......tata
date: Thursday, February 21, 2008 @ 9:18 AM
hey.....hm went to the gym today....yup then i went to Jorden's place to pass him some things....but guess he was not veri happy wif tat.....nvm.........hm i went Jurong east for my JC gathering....there was onli me, cynthia n caroline la.....yup we had pizza hut.....then sat there n chat....cynthia juz got back frm her exchange programme in china.....haha alot of interesting stories.....well guess it must be quite fun to experience another kind of life overseas.....yup after dinner.....i didnt wan to go home so i went to take bus.....hmm like to think over things when i take bus.....well suddenly felt tat inside me quite empty....perhaps its becos i m cleariin leave le so alot of free time then nothing to do......perhaps i miss guard duty haha gosh.....its like i m at a loss of wat to do.....everday wake up n think of wat i can do.........its a mental torture la.......yup well i nid to find a new goal in life........yup!
date: Wednesday, February 20, 2008 @ 8:02 AM
hey.....yup yup juz some updates........went out wif Jorden for supper on mon nite after his lesson.......hehe we had rojak at clementi....dun kinda like but he force me to eat.....then we sat somewhere n chat....yup somemore we happen to wear the same haha....okie tue met up up wif weijie n sam at clementi again to sun tann.......yeap we tann from 10 to 12....nice sun.......n alot of funny people too......haha ya then weijie n me haf to rush home....change n mit at bugis cos we r gona shop! Weijie wanted to buy new clothes.....bugis street hm havin sale lo......cardigans onli 10 bucks la....gosh....yup i bought 1 n a tie....weijie bought the same tie too....yeap its a nice accessory....we walk alot....oh yah we had pasta mania for late lunch haha...long time nv had tat.....yup then we rush again to our unit chinese new yr dinner had at a country club beside my camp........weijie, sam n me agree to be dress in white n black theme.....haha took some photos too....yup its onli a 8 course dinner...n seriously the food is pretty little....taste ok onli.....ya but we had much fun when we 'lao' the yusheng......haha alot of laughter....n weijie is the star of attention....anyway its our last dinner wif so many of our campmates so its worth rememberin.....yup everyone was high la.....nice dinner!............yup today i had FFI argh gota draw blood....hm lucky one time can draw finish liao cos alot of my campmates had to draw a few times! gosh haha yup oh yah Edmund drove an old lady down hill to the main road cos our camp is quite far in de......yup veri kind hearted hor haha can see from his expression................drools...................haha....then had my drivin lesson n the instructor actually praise me! omg.....haha but i still gota work harder.....hehe then i mit Alex at bugis n he was veri late so i shop around saw some things veri nice at Muji so i bought it for Jorden heee.........then we had NYDC for dinner......... had my favourite mushrooms attack! haha plus alex n me share a mudpie....its tiramisu favour....yum yum.....then we walk around.....bought some chocolates for Jorden again....haha yup yup tats abt it! tata....
date: Monday, February 18, 2008 @ 5:14 AM
hey......yup spent my valentine's day wif my friends.....had a very filling n expensive japanese buffet lunch at suntec wif weijie, Alex, Sinwee, Poohee, Jinhui n vin lee.......yup there were many varieties like tekkpanyaki, miso soup, sushi, cold dishes n ramen.....not to mention the desserts which r the hightlights of the day.....there r over 20 types of desserts from cakes to puddin to ice cream then chocolate fountian...lots of it la.....but we ate quite little onli la......haha but fun...nice place to go to n it cost 30 bucks each yup.......then poohee, sinwee, weijie n me went Kbox.....haha sang alot of songs.....which in between when sinwee n poohee singing songs then me n weijie were screamin at each other haha....n i play wif sinwee too....hehe yup atnite, met up wif Jorden.........hehe we went to sentosa cos he wanted to go there.....we had dinner at this restaurant along the beach.....nice ambience but food average onli......haha yup we had a hard time finishin the whole lot of food we ordered.........then we took a walk....sit down for a small chat...yup then i gota book in le.....yup hehe anyway the past weekend is my last duities le.......hm its quite a weird feelin la.....but then it certainly brought back many fine memories....ya thanks to weijie for pairing up wif me 3 days! haha its my last mount le so we wont get another chance le.......yup the most enjoyable moment is to order Mcdonalds when i m on duty......yeap its always weijie n my rountine to order mac.....yummmy.......i will always miss the feelin of doin tat.....n those duties though i would miss but i wont want to do it again haha.......yup 3 more weeks to ord! yup!
date: Saturday, February 09, 2008 @ 9:20 AM
hey....okie today serene came to my house for visitin...haha purpose is still to take hongbao la.....yup haven seen her for ages! guess its been 6 mths since i last saw her.....yup n she is leavin soon.....but i m lookin forward to goin sch wif her when she returns.....yup she is stilll veri bitchin haha she came then tok to my dad....my dad show her around the house......yup then she went home for dinner.....actually we r mitin Jiayin, Ryan n Xinhui later atnite for a gatherin but Jiayin isit feeling well so we postpone the outing......yeap anyway i went to find Alex instead.....went to Tiong Barue plaza.....walk walk then sit chat.......yup tirin day....argh my holidays gona end soon....i m goin back to duities next wek.....haiz but its my last week la haha lookin forward to ORD!
date: Friday, February 08, 2008 @ 7:53 AM
hey...hmm today went to Alex's house to haf lunch.....me, weijie, jinhui, poohee mit up at sengkang then took a bus to alex place.....his house quite nice haha alot of decor stuff la....n his bro does not seem abit like him at all....alex wipped up alot of things to eat such as pasta both in tomato n cream base, mushroom soup, chicken curry, roti prata, cold soba n his singature cheesecake.....yup we bought KFC to his house to add on n it turns out that we prefer the kfc chickens to his food haha but seriously his pasta veri nice......alex mum also quite nice de veri motherly......yup then we went to Justin's house as it is onli 2 blocks away....yup he has a dog! haha scared of dogs lo anyway justin house has a veri old hollywood kind of classic style.....veri different.....plus his room veri the army style.....haha u wont find any army stuff in my room...justin like to collect those army figurins n posters sort of.......yeeeee.....haha yup then we went back to alex house to play mahjong.....not me la but the rest....haha yup see them play cos i duno how to play but somehow i figure it out la haha ya then sinwee n me gota leave early so we went back..........i went to my aunt house yup then went for dinner at Sheraton hotel for buffet dinner..........oh their buffet sucks....haha cos there were veri little variety of food......haiz so disappointing......but i still gorge as much as i can haha.......yup been eatin alot these 2 days...yeap hehe ya tats abt it tata
date: Thursday, February 07, 2008 @ 8:10 AM
hey...yup today is chinese new yr 1st day! yeap okie during the 1st day, everyone or my relatives will surely cum my house 1st cos my grandma here mahz...anyway yup alot of people came......40 plus people....for the 1st time i really think my house is damn small.....haha n there are really no space to stand....so i juz hide in the kitchen n help out....yup occasionally goin over to the snacks section to gorge haha n there are more than 20 varieties of snacks to binge on.....my mum really everything also buy....hehe n i m the onli one washing bowls....aha cos its like when i start washin then bowls kept cuming in....non stop de....so i wash alot of bowls today! yup n lunch was great cos there r alot of things to eat....one thing is abalone! omg...i haven eaten 1 whole abalone since duno when....yup yummy hehe....anyway after collecting hongbaos...then u practically haf nth to do anymore so i juz lazed around....haha yup then we went visitin...went to duno which relatives house....haha cos i dun get to see them often.....sat awhile then i went to my mother's side.....yup they were catering food...so gona gorge again haha.....well i saw my grandmother...long time nv see her le.....its been 2 yrs i think cos last yr i spent my chinese new yr in camp...how foolish! haha anyway she has aged la....yup haiz but she can still cook alot of nice food specially for us.....yeap...i dun really know much of the people n i dun wanna know too cos they nv give hongbao haha kiddin la.....yup long day of standin...entertainin....which i hate....n my mum can really spread news haha.....cos everyone knows i m goin taipei in march n i m gona relief teachin.....omg.....when my relatives ask me, i was shocked as to wonder how they know such things.....yup its quite scary lo....n everyone starts askin questions argh......hee anyway tats about it...more vistin n food cuming up 2molo.....tata
date: Tuesday, February 05, 2008 @ 3:02 AM
hey....okie today went for lunch wif my mum n my 2 brothers at Grand Shanghai.....hm knda posh restaurant.....its my 2 brothers birthday....wat a coincidence tat both of them age gap of 9 years happen to be born on the same day.....yup my mum happen to order some dim sum..omg i m stil afraid of dimsum.....haha yup we eat veri quickly cos everyone has something on later.....i rush to Imm to mit weijie n sam......yup we had mos burger......order lotsa food.....yup then we walk around....shopping....hmm nth much to see either haha yup then we went home......its gona be chinese new year.....n everyone in the house seems busy...yup its like tat...this yr round gona be very busy thru out the chinese new year...yup alot of things to do...alot of places to go...alot of expensive dinners to attend to.....yeap but i m really looking forward to ORd after chinese new yr......haha...
date: Sunday, February 03, 2008 @ 8:19 AM
hey....yup weekend flew by.....had my dragon boat session....haha this time round i had my own paddle n it really improves one's skill la....yup i was in the newbie boat again...haha simply like to row wif the newbies cos its much relax n u really get to enjoy rowing....yup this time round i was sitting much more in front of the boat yup the whole session was quite fast but it was damn tiring.....hehe but overall i still enjoy la yeap!........................okie today i met up wif Jorden, hmm 2 yrs nv meet le so yup........we went PS to haf dinner then went to the Cathay to watch '27 Dresses'.......hey its a damn nice movie ok, its about a lady who loves to be bridesmaid at other people's wedding til she finds her true love........hm quite a touching story.....funny too....yup i wan a dress too haha.....ok tats about it tata
date: Friday, February 01, 2008 @ 4:07 AM
hey...yeap okie this week went for my ord range...hm its been some time since i went to the range le haha actually quite long le la......hm we were suppose to stay there the whole day cos there were day n night shoots so yup....damn sian....but many course time memories return.....its veri boring n mentally tiring......we juz sit there after we shoot....which is like few hours la....lucky got people to tok to....n u cant even slp! hmm haha i m not a gd shooter la so i was glad i m able to shoot a target, not to mention a few.....haha yup happy but when we packed up at night it was quite messy....we went back clean arms then go straight to doin duty le hmm i did duty from midnight to 7am in the morning wif jiahao....argh i kept on fallin aslp....its really exhausted lo! okok so much about camp...i m on leave! haha i will onli return for duty after chinese new yr!!!! yeah....oh btw i bought my own paddle le....quite nice..............................hehe yup hmmm went shopping wif weijie on thur......we mit up at suntec....then went to marina sq hehe i wanna buy the vest i saw at options...haha i haf been aiming for tat vest veri long le yup bought it....its over 60 bucks la.....but ok la.....then walk around n we had afternoon tea at this western cafe i really forgotten its name.....we had mudpies! plus a tempura wild mushroom.....haha both of us dun really like the mudpies tat we each order so we exchange wif each other........n it suits each of us....haha yup we then head down to orchard......we walk from PS to Heeren, sat down n rest while discussin about the manhunt 2008 finalist...all cant make it lo....haha rest enough n we went to Taka to look for dinner........hm orchard actually there are not many places to eat too....all eat till sian liao.....then we tried this new place at taka b1 Pasta Cafe.....i ordered a fish & chips while weijie order pasta n we had fried chicken n fried oyster for side dishes.......plus a strawberry n banana blended mixed yougurt drink for me yup.....the food quite ok la n we really eat until we wana vomit.....hehe the price quite ok about 60 plus for both of us......yup then we continue shopping...went Topman bought 2 tops....then went to far east.......hmm actually far east nothing much leh.....i mean male stuff all about the same de......yup sian then we walk back to Heeren cos still got time to take neo prints! haha again.....this time round i prefer the pictures haha cos quite natural......yup....okie i spent about 150 bucks.......yup shoppin spree mahz....n i m gona shop for more......ya heee tats about it tata.......
