date: Sunday, September 19, 2010 @ 11:43 AM
hmmm duno why but i woke up in tears today.
watched 'Love Cuts' on fri wif my friends,
its a local production staring zoe tay,
hmm i guess this movie is one which realli makes me cry my heart out,
after the movie i even haf to hide in the toliet to finish crying.
movie content is about losing a loved one,
which i guess i clearly understand the pain,
i love the theme song too.....realli illustrates how i feel....
i guess i m havin a pretty low period now....
realli affected by that show.....
that explains why i cried this morning prob....
or perhaps is because of ur call?
that moment i sapped back into our past....
rem u always used to call me in the morning and i m still asleep....
that moment i felt connected wif u again....
but after tat, i m pain stricken to what has happen to us....
i still love u......
but who realli understand? the pain i m goin thru?
1 yr plus, everynite thinking abt u,
the past kept coming back....
everynite i teared,
everynite i m in pain,
who can possibly imagine the kind of agony that i m going thru....
date: Sunday, September 12, 2010 @ 11:18 AM
hmm been realli busy.......
but as the saying goes,
i kept myself busy because i wan to divert my attention.
was glad that u came back.....
i tot i could realli let go but i end up deceiving myself
finally u move back ur things....
it looks empty now.....
my heart feels the same too.....
u didnt took ur helmet....
at least i can still look at it in the middle of the night.....
feelin ur presense.......
i dun grieve anymore......
its a complicated feeling.......
but its ok la......
m glad u r movin on wif ur life.....
havin ur own space.....
havin ur own life.......
m i being foolish by remaining in such a stage?
i realli dun grieve.....i dun wan u to pity me.....
i am juz contented that u r movin on.....
pursuin ur own happiness....
for me...life goes on.....
but holding on to the memories that u left me.....
today i was on thebus, i rem us last time in vivo....
u always keep a close check my shopping....
the way we talk, the way ur arms were around me,
this little things touched my heart.....
working was tough.....
whenever i see couples coming into the shop,
i envy them....
it juz brings back so much memories....
hmmm i cant help but feel u changed since ur trip overseas.....
becoming more estrange towards me.....
but its ok la....i foresee it.....
ur life goes on without me....
i m sorri that i disturb ur life.....
wish u happiness........
u know....its tirin juggling work n studies....
sometimes when u need a person to tok to,
there is no one to turn to......
that feelin is terrible.....
hmm it ok la.....it will be over.....
yup its abt it.....should not dwell too much....
juz happy that u r back...
cherish ur loved ones....
hugz.
