date: Friday, June 25, 2010 @ 11:01 AM
dear.....
watch sex n the city 2.....
got reminded of us....
u brought me to watch the show...
i fell in love with it at first sight,
just like how i felt in love wif u.....
it just brought back so much memories....
juz wondering how u r .....
miss u.
date: Saturday, June 19, 2010 @ 11:10 AM
I just recall how we use to tok on the phone.....
not much words...
just a simple 'miss you, love you'
i actually think that is a kind of blessing
i thought of how we were so sticky to each other tat we didnt wanted to put down the phone....
and our usual habit of u putting down the phone 1st...
'baby'...thats wat u used to call me....
well...trying to find the moon today....
wondering how is urs over there?
u should be havin alot of fun....
m i being foolish by living in our past memories?
i think its the only thing that i can indulge in to be really filled with happiness in my heart
its the kind of simple joy that i enjoy...
do u feel it?
date: Thursday, June 17, 2010 @ 10:44 AM
hmm......
had a little breakdown.....
stress from work.....
alot of unexpected load.....
the current job, yeap i m doing sales...
the stress comes from the sales...
the 1st time i m being push to my limits....
i just dread going to work....
but i know its just started so i got to adapt....
i see this as a challenge.....
but in the mean time, i wonder if i m losing myself...
i m unhappy, and i got to put on a front when i goes to work....
its mentally exhausting.....
sometimes i juz wish you were there to cheer me on,
to ask me hows the day at work....
to ask me if i had my meals during working hours...
to drop a caring message to spur me on...
a shoulder to lean on when i cry.....
i just wish u were here wif me......
its pathetic tat no one cares...
its sad when i needed someone to be there and no one is there
evryda is work n work n home....
i was just wondering why every post is like talking to u....
it actually help me feels better....
all these posts....
i juz cry each time i go back n look at them....
i get reminded of the pain i was in at tat point of time...
i just needed you.....
the old you....
date: Saturday, June 12, 2010 @ 8:31 AM
dear......
i duno what happen recently.....
i juz feel lost....
i m tired......
i miss u.....
but i know no matter what its useless....
maybe i should juz let go of everything....
the burden is so heavy.....
i myself cant keep up wif it....
i should go away alone....
at least for awhile.....
dun bother abt me .......i will be alright.
辜负爱的期待，已经不可能再回来。
愿你能相信爱，有一天还依然存在。
也许从此不再呼唤，许一段平静未来。
回忆是最完美的离开。
date: Tuesday, June 08, 2010 @ 11:45 PM
i didnt know who to turn to.....
how i wish u were still by my side
listening to me....
its juz so painful at times...
everyday......
the memories kept coming back....
reliving it seem to tear me apart....
my friend say to me,
life is about makin bridges...
a bridge is made and another destroy....
i should move on since life is so short right?
but can i still move on??
i m afraid.....
my friend said that i could be havin withdrawal syptoms...
i just wan u back....
dear,
Sorry,
I miss u,
date: Thursday, June 03, 2010 @ 12:06 PM
hmm recently went to Tioman with my chinese club friends...random decision, we decided the night before we went so quite rush....never book anything so juz went.....
hmm the trip was quite short onli abt 2 hours bus then ferry 1 hour...but we were on our own la...we went to this 1st resort, alighted at the wrong jetty then had to climb thru the forest before reachin our destination....it was a secluded beach just like the one we went to tat time......
the sea was realli beautiful......i didnt know why i went wif them but it seem like fulfilling one of our promises..that is to go on a trip like this juz like last yr...i wanted to relive our memories...
day 2...went to another resort......hmm spent the whole day looking for place to stay.....we got to their little town....quite a quiet town....in the end none of us could stand it so we end up the the realli expensive hotel berjaya resort......heheee realli had fun not slping n talkin thru the night......
i realli enjoy the trip.....thought of alot of things........i miss our happy moments in redang........
anyway we check our results at tioman...again i was dejected by my results.....but what can i do?! i seem to have given up hope.......without u by my side to cheer me on...i lose faith in myself...
sometimes the pain keep coming back..........especially when i was in tioman.......was wondering if u would occasionally think of the times we had in redang? i still miss u......
