date: Sunday, March 30, 2008 @ 8:31 AM
His name,
appear into our dialogues once again,
just when I believe you have forgotten about him.
That moment,
memories float to the mind,
you still love him.
I thought I ease the pain in your heart when he left you.
I thought I can be with you till ever.
But when you sliently gazed far beyond the boundaries,
I realised everything was just one sided.
Don't let me,
love you till the end only to find out that its empty.
Don't let me,
see from your eyes that I will lose everything in the end.
Don't let me be a flower,
waiting to be withered away.
Don't let me watch you smile
while you left me a broken heart.
...............................
Why can't I be able to......
Why did I think of......
the moment when we were still together.
Perhaps I long realised that our love has ended.
What choices do I have?
Why not just shut up!
In the mist of slience,
our smiles hiden those heartaches.
Why not just keep quiet,
saying anything does not help,
it only makes my heart ache even more.
Let me enjoy this moment,
when I don't have to face up to reality.
What is left is just deep slience.
But slowly the pain eases,
perhaps we are too tired emotionally.
date: @ 8:15 AM
hey....hmm today met Jie jun at Lot 1 for movie...we watch 'Step up 2'.......hey as compared to step up 1 rite, the dance moves are much more interesting n appealing......veri nice...but storyline think step up 1 nicer........yup i still prefer modern dance.....yeap anyway we walk around lot 1 then went to bukit panjang for a drink.....sat at starbucks n chat......quite nice to chill....cos i like the feelin of juz casually dressed such as in slippers n berms then juz sit anyhow..cross legs or any positions tat i m comfortable in at any cafes......yup nice hor....dun really care abt image...haha yup then i went back home.....2molo gona start work.....haha hmm hopefully i can enjoy wat i m doin....hehe yup i m gona haf my own apparel shop haha fat hope....yeap tats abt it...tata
date: Thursday, March 27, 2008 @ 9:53 AM
hey.....yeap today woke up quite early....acompany weijie to SIM.....yup he wanna send in his application....well actually kinda fun cos we r like crashing the school....haha quite small the school....yup then we had our lunch at their canteen.....yup much like students haha....n guess who we saw... Jaycee the school's beau haha yup but he looks ok onli leh.....haha yeap went round the sch....how nice if we were in the same school but nahz......but tat way its ok cos next time when they r searchin for the next school's beauty queen, i could be the beauty queen of NUS then sam qould be the queen of NTU n weijie could be the queen of SIM haha........nice rite.....yeap then we took a bus to hougang there cos i m goin for an interview!I seriously think me n weijie r jinx la haha cos we took the wrong bus, walk the wrong way plus its rainin heavily......haha y always i go for interview will rain de ahz....haiz....When we reach there n its really packed wif ppl.....quite scary ahaha but i dun haf to wait long lo....... hehe hmm i duno if i will get the job anot but anyway i did my best.....well the interviewer was quite bitchy lo....cant stand her attitude....argh like she lookin down upon me.....but i ask my mum when i got home then she said interviews r like tat veri normal de....so yeap.....hmmm I still think i insist on my stand n persistence to be myself......cos my bro would ask me to bootlick them ahz....then give all kinds of fake answers...but i cant do tat...tats not me....nahz.....i m tat str8 forward....i juz say wat i like lo.....i mean y muz i becum another person juz for a job....hmm sometimes i would insist on my stand n principles.....yeap hmm sometimes people would say i may lose out on certain things but so be it....i think its important to be urself n be happy of wat u do..................ok then me n weijie went to bugis shoppin......my ipod nano is spoil! gosh my songs.....anyway i went to buy another ipod nano but tis the latest version........can upload videos too.....cos 318 bucks lo.........yup we had dinner at this bubble tea cafe....its bubbletea really nice la....yup then we walk around before headin down to cityhall to get my cd....i bought Deepwhite 2nd album gosh...long waited....heh then we shop around marina sq....feelin hungry then we went for kfc.....haha kinda budget.....hehe we r all broke! yup..........hmm....
date: Monday, March 24, 2008 @ 8:12 AM
hey....yup today i met Jon.....hm we had lunch at PS....we tok about some things la....cos he may be setting up booths at the various uni so i may help tend the booths yup we are sellin soap! haha but i m not tat interested leh....haha anyway had drivin lessons yup tats about it.....looking for job........heehe its hard to find something i like....pay wise not a problem at all.....my mum kept on askin me to work in the bank.....oh my god....i m not workin there ok....i dun like the job nature at all.....ya haha hey soon i m gona apply for hostel!....... hmm Karl told me today tat Temasek Hall in NUS is quite hard to get into...erm but i wan PGP leh....all the halls no aircon lo n i will die........ haha i muz try watever ways to get into PGP......haha if not then i try TH la....hmmm heeee yup yup
date: Sunday, March 23, 2008 @ 9:02 AM
hey....yup i slack the whole day at home today! argh......kinda moody.....i dun like my life....i wanna revamp my life......sux......something is wrong la......hmm anyway Jorden came to my place to find me....gave him those taiwan stuff tat i bought for him.....yeap...haha then we went for a walk around........yeap hmm sharing wif someone ur problems is much better i mean after tokin to Karl....i feel much better....haha yeap hmmmm....
date: Saturday, March 22, 2008 @ 11:24 AM
hey...yup i met up wif Jiayin n GQ for a gathering....its been few months since we last met.....haiz anyway we sat at swensen PS to chit chat n to take a bite.....we chat alot about the past primary school memories...haha how weird, we are nv tired of raking up the past ah....n we enjoy it haha....Jiayin juz came back fom Tioman.....oh my god...its always been my dream to visit a beach resort....its in my wish list.....haha well juz tat no one acompany me to go.....argh its so nice la.....envious! ahah anyway i bought some little things for them from taiwan....haha bought leggings for Jiayin.....haha well its nice to wear cos i wear it be4 haha....yup i gave GQ a tshirt n a box of funny chocolates sweet.....yup a pity Xinhui cant join us.....then after roamin around PS for hours.....haha we watched 'The Spiderwick Chronicles'.....hey its veri nice ok.....i think its too short or rather i was too absorb into the movie....really its way of movement of the plot really allows u to concentrate in the movie.....yup quite a fairytale story...nice n warm...yup a few days ago i watched 'The orphanage'.....hmm the story quite complicated.....dun quite understand...but its quite scary as in u nv expect something to scare u out of no where ya......haha nice.....n yup thanks to GQ for sendin us back always ahaha.....seeya guys soon!
date: Friday, March 21, 2008 @ 10:15 AM
hey.....yeap today met up wif weijie...wanted to go sun tanning but it rain! argh....then i acompanied him go back n change then we went down to town instead haha....we went bugis....'yao siu' lo kind of means aiyo la haha tats wat we pick up in taiwan......anyway the restaurant we went to tat serve viet food does not taste nice at all.....really it sux la...waste money ahaha then we went to Pennisula plaza to buy jeans....skinny jeans haha yeap i bought 1......again..anyway i bought a pair of shoes too...my old one spoil le! haiz....its hard to find a nice comfortable shoes....ya then we went marina sq to have desserts....went to Andersen's ice cream....ordered cakes n mikeshakes haha nice.....yeap i spent alot today again....haiz anyway i m looking for a job.....salary not a problem...its the job nature tat is more important....yup i haf ask my friends to help me look out....hmm hopefully i can find if not i will haf to work in my mum's bank! haiz dread admin job........yup btw 1 funny incident tat happen in taipei was me n weijie both tried on their colourful leggings!!!! ahaha damn funny.....n its comfortable lo haha
date: Thursday, March 20, 2008 @ 9:30 AM
hey....i m back!!! yeah....haha finally...anyway its really a cool trip to taiwan...well on the 13th of mar...we set off to airport....went to terminal 3 to take pictures cos nv been there be4 mahz.....yup camwhores start liao.....actually this group of people goin taiwan is really a mixed group la.....i mean i duno why the 6 of us me, weijie, sam, edmund, hongrui n sinwee came together but we sure had lotsa of fun...its kind of weird when u trvael with ur friends n not ur family cos u r on ur own so its like u nid to find ur own way....yup....so we went on board the plane....n started our magical journey....hehe time passes by so slowly on the plane.....haha but we still manage to entertain ourselves....yup then we landed....kinda tired already...yup then we went to the hotel after a hour bus trip.....yup time flew by us veri fast cos everyday we will get up veri early...visit those places of interest...take lotsa pictures..then afternoon we will go to underground malls or shopping centres which u can see but u cant buy....then atnight is the worst...night markets of a few streets!! n we got to cover a few night markets in a night la....its freakin tiring....but well we took alot of pictures...had alot of great food...bought lotsa stuff....clothes..bags!!! food.....i realise 600 sing is not enough la......mus bring more next time yup hmm of course there r some small little hippcups along the way like searching our way...hmm some mishappenings.....but its all veri small......we get over it veri quickly yup.................i would say its an experenice for me....really an eye opener........i mean travelling on our own is not easy ok...n i manage to get some time for myself ....haha i went to walk around the hotel on my own....cos our hotel is located in the main shopping area too.....yup its quite cool to walk all by urself atnight...lookin at the lightings n the people....yup veri nice feelin....tot of travellin overseas next time all by myself...guess would be a totally new experience...................ok taipei trip there r a few places worth mentioning....the hot springs which must try, there is a car design restaurant which u can haf ur meal in a car....danshui jetty...veri beautiful...there is this theme restuarant too tat got nice waiters around...haha yup n many more...we did alot crazy things in taipei la.....haha yup but this time i find some people abit rude...aha but there r many more people in taipei tat r veri helpful....especially when we nid to ask for directions....taiwanese people r still veri friendly.......ya n i m more familiar wif taipei once again....haha hope to go there again....veri soon....cos i really like tat place......yup end of my trip....weijie lets start savin money n plan for our next trip! haha
date: Wednesday, March 12, 2008 @ 9:14 AM
hey...yeap today have drivin lessons again...quite smooth la....anyway met up wif damien for dinner...its been quite a while since i met him plus he oso moved so hard to keep in contact....well we went to this jap pasta restaurant....its at velocity.... yup n there got many types of pasta....my god....i tried the one wif beef n kimchi pasta...freakin nice ok....yummy....ok yup got home then pack my stuff....2molo gona fly le!!!!!! yeah......its my first time travelling overseas myself n wif my friends....i m sure we will enjoy ourselves......yeap....haha i will be gone for a week......so for more updates........cum back a week later.....heee tata....
date: Tuesday, March 11, 2008 @ 9:16 AM
Can only acompany you that far,
despite certain things cant help it.
Its more than friendship
but not yet to love relationship.
Should I sob in tears?
Its me or you who is thinking too much?
I began to wonder,
the person in front of me,
is it the real you?
Its been hard on both of us.
We cant find anything to love,
when to step forward,
when to give up,
we don't even dare make a choice.
You are greedy
but till this waiting loses its meaning,
you and me,
cant pend out an ending.
Lets just put this beautiful mistake down.
date: @ 8:52 AM
hey...yup today got drivin lesson.....hmm instructor came early lo....then i got to rush...hair haven setdo finish lo haha...yup today drivin quite scary cos its raining!!!! my god...haha but ok la....then met Sean at queensway shopping centre....he wanted to buy a pair of shoes so we went to look.....his shoes got stolen tats y....hahabut look around hmm nothing nice leh so he nv buy....then we went to Ikea for their lovely meatballs.......yummy.....i cant bite la...painful sia but i dun care i still eat haha yup then went home le......got to pack my stuff for Taiwan!!!! yeah....its so fun when u start packin.....haha alot of things.........yeap cool.....1 more day!!
date: Monday, March 10, 2008 @ 10:45 AM
hey....yup guess its a long waited day finally arrived!!!! ORD le!!!!!! yeah...finally finally i regain my freedom...yup collected my IC early in the morning......its gona be my last time visitin this camp....haha yup sam n i were veri happy n glad......n hey we saw weijie too......hmm really wanna share the joy wif him anyway he has onli 3 more months la....yup i wanted to scream as usual but didnt haha......yes finally....i m sick of the camp n everything abt army or ns........hehe then i went home....tried cookin my own pasta haha followin the recipe alex gave me haha but i think the pasta itself too soggy....haha yup then met Jorden after his class.......ok guess wat all my hates appear....i saw cockroaches.....my number one fear haha then i had to use tat hawker centre toliet which i swear i will nv use it again....gross man....my second hate dirty toliets!!!! n my third hate is....weird people! there are all kinds of weird people in tat hawker centre..i m not against them but it kind of disturb me la.......yeap haha we ate supper then i went home......happily ever after...haha ORD lo!!!!!!
date: Sunday, March 09, 2008 @ 8:21 AM
hey....yup quite a busy sat n sun.....went out wif weijie on sat for our all day shoppin n eating tour.....we met at PS went to buy tix to '10000BC' yup then had lunch at Ajisen..... we walk to Far east to shop....saw quite alot of things along orchard, we went to Cine to take neo print but the machines all old de so we nv take....then we went taka to buy ice cream....i had green apple fav yummy...yup then we went wisma topman......nth much so we walk to far east to shop.....wanted to find 1 shop tat was feature in Teens mag but i forgot the store name so we slowly comb for it but cant find la....yup but weijie bought his suspenders haha......then we took a bus to suntec......went to marina sq to shop we went topman to buy a colour tee top each yup haha then we rush to bugis.......half way on the road we had our dinner at shaw house Creation cafe...well i mus mention this cafe cos its really good.....price ok but u get veri gd food....i order seafood marinara n the set came wif soup, drinks n desserts....we had brownie wif ice cream...gosh its veri nice!!! yummy then we went bugis street quick shop haha nth much to see too then went OG to find sweeets but dun haf.......oh well n its time for our movie so we walk back to PS....haha catch the 2150 show....hmm the show quite ok onli leh.....juz tat some scenes look veri grand.....otherwise its juz a typical tribal show......yup n i dun understand wat people are laughin about.....its not funny lo....haha yup so after a day of rushin, shoppin n eating...we went home almost dead!...............................ahaha on sun went out wif Jeff.....went to watch 'Rule number 1' at marina sq..........hey its scary lo yup quite......hehe but the story has a twist at the back.....yup quite nice la yeap....then we went Thai express for dinner......yup then went for a long walk around marina area........yup yup feelin tired....these 2 days walk alot....haha yup 2molo ord le!!! heee.....
date: Friday, March 07, 2008 @ 6:37 AM
hey....hmm okie enough about the frustrations of being recall back to do extra duities haha today i had my ORD reception! yup well a long wait for this day has finally arrived haha though i will onli be officially ORD on mon but i cant help it as to put an end to this chapter of my life. Ya I entered army lookin forward to the new life it would bring me but i guess i juz see more uglier sights of humans...hm well but also let me see somethings better n to cherish life. Lets not tok about the bad things....good things are firstly, I met 2 persons which have became my best friends...hm perhaps even more than best friends? haha tats Weijie n Sam, its becos of them tat my ns life has since coated wif a new set of colours n its veri bright....everytime i go back camp for duities, they will be there crackin jokes......i would never forget the time during course time where Me n Sam are always havin fun despite the tough trainin....i will always go to this bed there n crap or take 'mrt'......haha Then Weijie, we met again after 'reincarnation'...haha well i will alway remember the times at Copper gate or Toranto where we will order Mac n sleep on the floor or the table yup...........not onli in camp, these 2 sisters or buddies are also great company outside.....we always try our best to lead tai tai's life....like goin for sun tannin together, shopping like crazy, high tea or lunch dinner tat cost a bomb, takin cute neo prints, even travellin to Taiwan! yup our life is veri carefree....n i like tat! hmm Ord le but we will still be the best of friends, the 3 princesses yup! haha okie Secondly, Ns has taught me alot about life....I cherish freedom more....I cherish my family much more....cos I myself dun really care about rules n regulations...i simply hate them, i hate to comply to those rigid rules......there are sometimes when u must really put a front on n entertain people.....there r times where i really cant stand it....especially those sergents or higher....oh pls in my eyes, we r all equal! pls dun cum n order me around, i guess its becos i m not happi tats y i start to haf a mind of my own....I know wat I wan n wat i dun wan....yup its like tat everywhere...all over the guardroom....i duno who is really sincere n who is not.....i really hate politics....argh cant stand it! Well cherish wat u haf....cherish the time when u r not resticted yup.....i haf regain my freedom!! yeah.....hmm lastly i would like to thank some people tat is my BMT J coy platoon 4 section 4 bunk mates for bein the best section, I wanna thank everyone in SBAB FDS unit, my camp mates n all...its been a long journey...yup Thank You so much.......
.......................okie as this chapter ends, hmm its about 2 yrs ah haha yup i m gona began on another chapter which deems exciting n adventurous tat is my UNI!!!!!!!! NUS!!!!!!! haha my dream school!!!!!! yeah......
date: Monday, March 03, 2008 @ 9:43 AM
hey....okie today did nth much...watch dvds at home.....then met up wif Jeff for dinner...met him at west coast...we went to try the xo fish slice beehoon....hmm not tat nice thou haha yup then we went west coast park to walk....hey actually didnt know tat west coast park so nice leh....i mean there is a beach or shoreline.....veri nice sea breeze lo....we really walk quite far....haha then we took a bus back......yup then i mit Jorden after his lessons.....hm acompany him eat.....yup tats about it.....i m goin back camp this wes to do duty again! argh...y is this happening?!!! y cant i ORd in peace?! haiz.........
date: @ 1:35 AM
The sky,
colourless.
Time,
became Translucent.
Loneliness,
roams my heart.
The 'You' I know,
is different.
What happen to our tomorrow?
What happen to us?
If I can just take a camera and capture Love,
how many snap shots will it be?
But every shot piece up memories.
Excuse me,
but where would I be in every shot?
Me & You,
looking at the sun rise,
fantasizing about our future,
Listen to that song of yours,
enjoy as we eat,
initiating breakup,
writing to you in tears,
all these are what my eyes have seen.
Wait,
I love you.
Wildful as a child,
suffer like an adult.
In this world,
how many of us are like me,
sobbing away for Love.
Then,
continue down the path.
Its me,
who thinks too much,
I should forget.
Sitting in the bus,
I thought of......
my future.
date: @ 1:19 AM
hey....hm okie thurs went out wif weijie.....actually sam cumin too but last min cant anyway we went to PS swensen to feast! haha we order a main course each n 3 to 4 side dishes haha eat till we veri full......hmm its always like tat la haha veri time must eat till vomit n weijie pregnant....haha n at least 30 bucks 1 meal haha.....yup then we went to watch 'The Leap Years'...........hmm i think its the best love story i ever watched....a promise to mit every leap year.......i think its hard to achieve tat....wats more if u really love tat person, u would wan to spend every moment wif him/her rite.....how to wait 4 yrs? i think their love in the movie touched me.....n well yup we should choose to be wif the person u really love.....hopefully i can find someone soon........anyway the whole movie is so romantic n abit art film kind of feeling.....but ok la not tat borin.....the story is really nice......yup it really teaches someone about love......there r many little ways to portray love.....n this movie did it.....it feels so close to ur heart tat u think u urself is in it........hmm yup i cried, weijie too....hehee n he got tissue but he dun wan to give me lo! after tat we went to buy some lovely cakes....my fav strawberry shortcake....haha then we went mos burger to eat....yup well Fri was my clearance day but then i gota stay in camp cos of Mas selamat! argh....its really frustrating to suddenly being force to stay in camp n do duty.......it really sux.......ok haiz well Jorden was sick......hm wanted to go find him but he wanted to slp so yup stay at home n rest after i got back frm camp which is sun....spend 2 days in camp argh.......
