date: Thursday, October 25, 2007 @ 4:54 AM
Thinking back,
I yearn to fall in love.
But now,
I dun really have any interest or the patience.
My life loses some sort of colour.
You yearn for what you do not have,
but we take things for granted.
Who doesnt want to find their true love
that we desire and love madly for?
I always thought you are my last love
but I ended up in disappointment.
I really dun understand LOVE.
At 21,
thought I am single,
but I am enjoying my life.
Ocassionally wanna fall in love,
but Love lags too.
I can only wait.
Nevermind if it never comes,
there is no need to plurge into sorrow,
because I dun really care.
Or perhaps that person who can make me cares
has not appeared.
date: Wednesday, October 10, 2007 @ 9:25 AM
hey....i m much better after these period of time......i mean yup better....all thanks to some of my friends out there who have been talkin to me such as Ben Matt and Ben Ben....especially Jensen whom i have been messagin 48 hours non stop....haha yup hmm well the past few days in camp makes me wonder why would people put on a mask everyday to face people? i mean isit it veri tiring?! R they happy like tat?! I cant even face the person whom i detest for too long....mmm i gona explode....i seriously think if someone does not even have the basic respect for someone....he is a goner....total loser...he wont gain any of my respect....i m goin to make sure he get wat he deserve...yup tats abt it tata...
date: Saturday, October 06, 2007 @ 9:42 AM
hey....hmm went shopping wif weijie n sam today...met up at bugis......walk around bugis junction n bugis street....oh superheroes is on sale!!! damn cheap la so bought a top from there......hehe yup bugis street nothing much...so we went to sim lim.....check out some prices...argh the Mp4's are so nice n chic...hmm but no money....haiz i m already spendin next month's pay! then we went penisula shopping centre...my brother said there are a few shops tat sell skinny jeans!!! yup its at the basement n the whole place turn out to be like bugis street ya...its quite amazin....really worth goin there.....yup ok now some info abt skinny jeans....there are several colours....really all kinds of colour n its like wat u see in Top.... yup haha n they even got normal skinny n super skinny........ya its really my favourite la....i wanna buy all the colours! but some too loud la so hmm dun dare to wear it out....in the end i bought a grey colour one...hehe yup its cheap too....hmm we went to suntec...had pasta mania.....yeap then we went on to the new 'playground'......but gals clothings after all.....nothing much...oh there is this ice cream shop...ice cream veri extraordinary....they got many special flavours yup i order blueberry cheese cake....yummy.....yup bought quite a few things today...hm gota be more thrifty.....sob...yup yup tats abt it....tata
date: Friday, October 05, 2007 @ 11:56 AM
hey....hmm someone said i m actually quite cold...well i dun denied but i can be hot too hehee no la its juz tat i dun trust people easily so u need more time to get to know me better.....yup anyway i went gym n sun tannin again today.....yup then met up wif Sam, weijie n star....yeah....haha we went IMM...had a veri filling lunch cum dinner at Ajisen...yummy we seems to always eat tat....haha then we shop around......then we saw this veri cute vest so sam weijie n me bought it...same design...haha kinda like sch uniform.....yup then i went home first before mitin Ben.....hmm we went holland V a veri nic cafe to jz chit chat........yup he has a veri interestin job lo.....yup yup...he is quite a funny guy la......hehe ya tats abt it....broke this month....haiz tata
date: Thursday, October 04, 2007 @ 9:00 AM
hey...hmm i think today i really did think alot...certain things really bother me alot hmm its been since a long time i felt so defeated...complete lost of confidence...i lost hope....i dun understand how life works...anymore.......i feel so troubled....Its like a nightmare....it gives me the creeps n i cant seem to breathe outside the box.....
I went to mit Jon today at PS for lunch...we went Cartel...hm i told him abt my problems as he could seee i m rather troubled...yeap he studies psychology...tats y...he console me n gave me some advice.....'everything has a reason for happening'.....'its ur choice to determine ur own happiness'.......i later on went to beach road to get some stuff done so while i was sitting down at the hawker centre, a middleage man came n sat on my table.....then he actually said i look veri troubled n wanted to tok to me abt my problems....hmm not tat i dun wanna share but its juz tat i dun trust people easily.....its me......so i cajole him abit then went off....I went to mit jiayin at fast east after tat to pass her some things.....hm could not recognise her at 1st hehe....tok to her n realise we dun often really sit together in the middle of the day to juz chit chat...i enjoy doin so...hmm then saw xinhui too....haha she n her fake eye lashes.....yup then on my way home i saw a young teen shiverin in pain while sellin tissue paper in his wheel chair....i saw an old man using a walkin stick veri slowly crossin the road......i saw some not well to do families around my area......it really pains my heart to see all these....hmm haiz...i m confuse.......sometimes i juz lose control of myself...hmmmmmmmm guess i juz need some time to pick myself up again...i manage to do it in the past n i believe i can now......yup i chatted wif ben over the phone n yup he inspire me alot too yup yup tats abt it.....too much le....hmm tata
date: Tuesday, October 02, 2007 @ 8:57 AM
hey......hmm back blogging again...yup i m off this whole week....cool rite...anyway life is fine...juz tat i feel tat hmm perhaps i m really not talented or wat, hmm i need more time than other people or i need to work doubly hard than other people....juz feeling sad but tat does not make me give up hope on life.....life still goes on....yup i juz needa think things thru n work harder....yeap.....hmm my days r quite rountine....gym gym n gym....plus drivin lessons....yup yup quite busy......
