date: Thursday, December 31, 2009 @ 11:28 AM
Dear,
looking back at 2009, many things happened, there were ups and downs, though i guess downs more than ups but at least u were there when i need you.
There was school work that i can nv ever reach my target, no matter what i work hard, there were tears in my effort but i guess it doesnt matter anymore. Just wanna thank my teachers who have helped me along the way, its really tough n i disappoint them time and again, feel so sorry.
There were the ever trouble club activities, as in every time there would be new problems arising, its tiring when u realise that u r the onli one struggling to keep it going, but once every hurdle is overcomed, it realli has that much satisfaction. but how long can i keep it going?
There were my family and love ones, i dun wanna mention abt my family, its just not the right time, many things happen recently that i simply had enough, i juz wan my mum to be happy. my dearest friend Weijie, he is always there when i needed him, i guess i owe him a big Thank You, i think he has his fair share of problems, i should show him more concern, really.
Dear, there is you. I just duno how to start, we were so happy together until i foolishly destroyed our own happiness, i can nv forget the tough but sweetest journey of my life, it was tough but i knew u were there for me, u were always there for me, the darkest days of my life was during the few mths without u, i duno how i managed to get thru but that is not the life i wanted. I still cant let it go, i know u too, 2009 has come to an end, i just wanna say lets put everything behind, lets start a fresh in 2010, i really hope to go on another journey wif u, I seem to haf lose everything at the end of 2009, hopefully 2010 would be a better year for me n for you, what i wan is for us to be happy as before, thats all i wish for, really.
another year older, i just wish to have a simple contented life wif u.....
date: Wednesday, December 30, 2009 @ 10:57 AM
dear, the pain is back.....
i got up at nite, heart wrenching.....i cant control myself.....
i cant afford to lose u, i lose u before, right now i just want to hold u tight, as tight to me.......
i wanna hold u in my arms again.....
date: Sunday, December 27, 2009 @ 1:19 AM
dear, today i watch a short tele movie, hmm its veri nice.
love can be so simple, though i duno what i can do for you in the future but whatever it is, i wan ur future to be happy.
我只是个soso的男生，但我对你的爱不是soso的。
date: Saturday, December 26, 2009 @ 10:32 AM
Dear, Thanks for calling me......i appreciate tat, its like the only warmth i haf receieve so far.....
jus tat no one cares, no one realli cares....
my fever juz got better but not sorethroat.....not feeling well...
i miss u.....i rem the last time i went to the airport to wait for u to be back, its not abt how long i waited, its the person whom i m waiting for, the joy when i get to see you.
I realise joy can be so simple
I just wan to wait for u, no matter how long becos i m waiting for u, i wan to see u, tats my onli happiness....
date: Friday, December 25, 2009 @ 8:43 PM
I am losing my senses........
I actually had the courage to pick up a knife, i could feel the pain but i juz stop there....
i duno how to carry on wif life without you
just what m i doin?! sometimes i could not control myself.....
date: Tuesday, December 22, 2009 @ 9:04 AM
Dear, I really need you at this moment......
I duno how to carry on wif life anymore.....
I am really Sorry....
I miss you.....
为何我们真诚的对人家，人家却要伤害我们？
为何人这么可怕？
dear, i know we are both really heartbroken over what happen, but i realise my mistake, i really wish to repent....u should know how devastated i am the past few mths without you, pls give me juz 1 more chance, i cant simply let go....
date: Sunday, December 20, 2009 @ 9:54 AM
Trust is built over time......but it can be destroy overnight....
dear...i miss u......
i wonder how you are......
i miss ah pao......
i miss how you tickle me to laugh.....
sorry....
i juz hate myself......fucking hate myself...
date: Thursday, December 17, 2009 @ 9:35 AM
How are you?? its been awhile since we talk, hmm didnt dare to call you, for fear of raking up the past, didnt want you to feel the pain again.
I admit that there are a few people dating me, but i didnt had the courage to step forward, I just cant.....
recently, someone held a special place in my heart, but i know nth would come out of it, i am contented to at least spend sometime wif this person, it takes my mind off you. I m afraid of getting deeper into this sort of relationship, i realli am....
I miss you....
I hate myself....juz a loser.....
date: Monday, December 14, 2009 @ 1:10 AM
Sorry. Finally i spoken up, I was being true to my own feelings, I dont deny having feelings for you, just that i dun realli deserve your love, i am glad that we expressed our feelings for each other.
我们的爱情能成立吗？
dear, suddenly i realise i needed you so much, i realli dun wish to give up on our love. The memories kept coming back recently, i hope u r happy wif ur life now....
I am juz tired of all these....perhaps i should juz keep my distance from people? I should spent sometime to think what i wan, i m realli lost....
its painful at times but just allow me to undertake all the suffering alone...because I m realli scare..
i miss u...
date: Sunday, December 13, 2009 @ 2:57 AM
今天找回了那失去已久的感觉，真的好久都没有被人疼，今天，他握了我的手，他的一举一动，让我暂时忘了你。
但是我真的没有胆量去接受别人的好，我有那个资格吗？我不知道我还相信爱情吗，还是我太天真了？
我有勇气去重心开始吗？
可能我不应该接受他对我的好，我不想伤害他，我也不想伤害你。
谢谢那些对我好的人，真的谢谢你们，谢谢Lester每当我不开心时，总会慰问关心我，谢谢。。。
记得你跟我说过的一句话，我是值得被真心对待的。
我好想放开一切，勇敢去爱，但会有谁愿意陪我走出去呢？
Lester 对不起。。。真的对不起，刚才和你说了一些心事，希望你会明白。。。
怕你爱上我，请不要，我给的真的不多，请原谅我的懦弱。
date: Saturday, December 12, 2009 @ 2:43 AM
是否该放下呢？好希望我有那份勇气，去重心开始。
其实每一个人都只要那份简单的快乐，渴望被爱情拥抱，但是又害怕被爱情受伤，有时感觉好像个傻瓜。
我想我没那么坚强。。。
我只希望你能快乐。。。
date: Thursday, December 10, 2009 @ 10:20 AM
考试结束了，自己把自己搞得好忙，但是不管怎样，我心里还是惦记着你。
记得你叫我往前走，说得容易，但我真地做不到，我不能说放下就放下。
最近认识了J，他也刚刚分手，他是个好情人，他和我分享了好多对爱情的真理。
我真的好想你，每一晚还是用眼泪来想你。你好吗？
最近假期，好空闲，有时觉得好寂寞，除了由training之外，有时就自己出去走走，不然就呆在家里看电视，还有跑步。。最近好喜欢运动，可能运动让我暂时忘记一切，让我心情好一点。
我只想听你的声音，好想。。。。。
我对你的思念，你听得到吗？
