date: Thursday, October 04, 2007 @ 9:00 AM
hey...hmm i think today i really did think alot...certain things really bother me alot hmm its been since a long time i felt so defeated...complete lost of confidence...i lost hope....i dun understand how life works...anymore.......i feel so troubled....Its like a nightmare....it gives me the creeps n i cant seem to breathe outside the box.....
I went to mit Jon today at PS for lunch...we went Cartel...hm i told him abt my problems as he could seee i m rather troubled...yeap he studies psychology...tats y...he console me n gave me some advice.....'everything has a reason for happening'.....'its ur choice to determine ur own happiness'.......i later on went to beach road to get some stuff done so while i was sitting down at the hawker centre, a middleage man came n sat on my table.....then he actually said i look veri troubled n wanted to tok to me abt my problems....hmm not tat i dun wanna share but its juz tat i dun trust people easily.....its me......so i cajole him abit then went off....I went to mit jiayin at fast east after tat to pass her some things.....hm could not recognise her at 1st hehe....tok to her n realise we dun often really sit together in the middle of the day to juz chit chat...i enjoy doin so...hmm then saw xinhui too....haha she n her fake eye lashes.....yup then on my way home i saw a young teen shiverin in pain while sellin tissue paper in his wheel chair....i saw an old man using a walkin stick veri slowly crossin the road......i saw some not well to do families around my area......it really pains my heart to see all these....hmm haiz...i m confuse.......sometimes i juz lose control of myself...hmmmmmmmm guess i juz need some time to pick myself up again...i manage to do it in the past n i believe i can now......yup i chatted wif ben over the phone n yup he inspire me alot too yup yup tats abt it.....too much le....hmm tata
